Hate is too big a word while Love is too small !

People, this post will go nowhere, its supposed to be this way, completely haywire. In case you expect a beginning and an end, I am sorry.
.......….and yeah, don’t expect anything in the body too !

Feb 14th is one day which I will remember forever; especially this years’. I made a couple cry; no, I made them weep. He searched for his lungis end to wipe his tears while she found resort on the pillow; for a solid 2 and a half hours. I had no regrets making my parents weep on a day when they are supposed to be only loved. And partly responsible for this is Aamir Khan. I made them watch one of his movies. No, not Mann or Mela and for those who couldn’t tolerate Ghajini, its not that either. They were a little hesitant initially to watch a Hindi flick, because according to my dad, Hindi movies doesn’t reflect the common man problems and is filled with flashy songs, foreign locales, item numbers and dakkooos !! So I literally made them watch Taare Zameen Par, and now thanks to Aamir, I could convince my dad to watch some of the best Hindi movies that were released recently.

I normally don’t celebrate Feb 14th. Not because it’s a day named after some saint and that I don’t believe in it. And also not because I was expecting pink chaddis to reach my apartment. My mom was born 54 years ago on this day and on this particular day I have always given priority only to my mom that no other woman can take that place even in the future. I don’t get involved in any of the valentine day activities, though I have never gifted my mom anything on her birthday all these years (hiding my face!). This year when I really wanted to, she wasn’t ready to accept asking me not to spend !!! Mothers, I say !!! All I could do was take them out for a wonderful dinner along with her relatives (yeah, they happen to be my relatives too !). and to further satisfy my quench, I took all of them to a mushy Tamil movie (Abhiyum Naanum) today. Well, once again, they weeped and were happy ! LOL.

Btw, I just wanted a couple of you to know that Valentines Day isn’t celebrated among lovers alone. Its just a day to show your love, and it could be to your brother, sister, mom, dad, grandparents, best friend, neighbour (of course, not his wife !) anyone ! Some of you might find it incestuous or weird, but to me its not. “Its all about loving your family”(quoted by Karan Johar). I had received a card long ago from my brother and there are hundreds of them available on net and probably the hallmark / archie store next to you. Search in the net and you will know more !

There is nothing wrong in expressing love through cards, gifts or even through gestures. I have no idea how to and I can’t. It doesn’t mean my heart is made up of any hard metal, I express what I feel for others by giving them small surprises, by making them cheerful, being with them even if they don’t need, by not giving up on them and by not letting them down, given any circumstance. I give all attention that I can, but when people demand attention that is beyond my capacity, it suffocates me. And in my struggle to breathe, they start judging and arriving at their own conclusions of what I feel for them. Further attempts to suffocate me in terms of self pitying or attention seeking are nothing but torture! I do have emotions, but demanding sympathy with an over dose of emotions is equal to tormenting me. Believe me, self pitying is an art; only few can master it and if tried on vulnerable people, it is sure to work wonders! LOL. Such acts when exhibited publicly are even big a turn off. Feelings, expressions, love, or, whatever they name it, are supposed to be within oneself or within a closed circle. Letting others know that one is hurt or obsessed with tinges of sadism is cheap and only relates to the emotional stability that one has.

On the other hand, hating a person for me is tough; unless provoked to an extent that I begin hating my own existence. I try my best not to, but at times, I am left with no choice. Also, don’t we hate and hurt certain people only because we love them more ???



Hate, according to me, is too big a word while Love is too small a word to express !!!

This post actually came up when people started questioning about my blog activities. They wanted to comment on some post that is not related to awards and tags ! LOL. I rarely write anything serious here, and thats because I dont know how to be that way. I know my limitations pretty well :D My posts and the comments that I leave in your blogs are more or less casual. Well, when you are not in your senses, you lose your humor and tend to incline towards philosophy !! and thats what happened to this post. Frankly speaking, I am using this space and my time to have some fun. and I must admit, in the process, I have learned a lot too. I would love to learn more, so all you fellow bloggers out there, keep blogging !!! LOL !

Pic courtesy Google and some Hugh !

PS : I did warn you about the structure of the post, didnt I ?